=(

uuuuggggghhhh.

so basically, I haven't had a decent conversation with gary in a cool week.
& it's bad enough that we're 2000 miles away from each other.

during our last (VERY rapid) conversation, he was on his way out with his friends & it went a little like this:
..."i'm about to go out with (so-&-so)..."
& then i do my usual whining routine about how we don't get to talk much anymore.
"well, i have to live my life... i'm not gonna just sit around & cry all day about missing you" (or something to that effect).

i mean... i guess i can't blame him.
but look at me - i'm SUPER busy too...
HOWEVER, i DO find to time to call him.

idk...
it never really bothered me before, but lately, this long distance relationship thing has been heavy on my mind. it saddens me to know that i won't see him until the summer. i miss him. i miss all of the extra attention. the hugs. the kisses. making each other laugh. =(

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ugh.
i need to get my mind off of this crap.
...now, it's time to "lubricate my spine" with some belly dancing. lmao. BYE.