new new. part dos.

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okay.

so i must admit, i've handled the last month pretty well and kept a good attitude despite all of the bs being thrown my way.

financial problems.
break-ups (yes, plural).
unexplainable attitudes.
an overwhelming amount of schoolwork being thrown at me.
countless ladybugs invading my room to hibernate.
fashion show drama.
"friends" talking behind "friends'" backs.
being paranoid about those same "friends" talking about me.
coping with being ignored and excluded frequently.
and SO much more.

i don't know how much more i can take.

yesterday, I was in the preliminary stages of a breakdown,
but thankfully, today sort of balanced everything out.
i did well on 2 tests i thought i completely bombed.
i'm finally feeling confident about understanding this accounting class.
gas is $2.09 (hopefully i'll get this hot ten cent discount with my kroger card like lauren).
and thoughts of HIM have been making me feel all warm & mushy inside.

but anyway...
in an attempt to resist a possible meltdown,

i'm simply removing myself from any negative situation i'm sucked into.

have you heard the old adage, "birds of a feather flock together"?

well, i figure that if i continue to surround myself with people who speak negatively of others, anticipate the negative outcomes before they see the positive and have unpleasant, dry attitudes... i'll do the same.

But that's not the type of person I want to be.

I want to be likable. & plus, I know what it feels like to be talked about and backstabbed and I wouldn't want for anyone to experience that kind of torture.

i need a new environment. i'm tired of the same ol' same ol'.

sure, i enjoy my closely knitted circle of friends (the nashville ones & the ones in los angeles), but sometimes i need a break - i want to branch off, meet new people with new stories, and discover new places with them.
I want to surround myself with positive people. Positive people tend to think alike and fuel themselves from each other's positive vibes.

so from now on, i'm distancing myself from ALL negativity.

and if i've ever said anything hurtful or negative about anyone, i apologize.

the end.

peace, readers.
hello, new erin.